A couple of weeks ago Stephen and I went to dinner at a new to us place. I attempted sushi for the first time since I moved (it wasn’t the west coast’s, but it was good!). We talked about how fast the last year has gone.
The change to fall immediately made me feel more settled. Fall is my favorite time of year and I was finally experiencing something in Georgia for the second time around.
As we walked out of the restaurant a light rain stopped and the sun broke through the clouds. We quickly jumped in the car and took off for some of our favorite country roads.
The sky was orange and mist rose over open fields. Around each corner I thought we had reached the pinnacle of beauty until we’d turn the next corner and I realized we hadn’t.
We drive these roads all the time, but I had never seen them like this. It was a gift we were lucky to experience by being in the right spot at the right time.
Sometimes timing can feel off. Someone’s having a bad day. I’m having a bad day. Expectations don’t match reality. Reality may feel way too real.
I thought as I got older I’d get wiser. But the older I get, the less I know. It’s scary but sometimes liberating. Some days I go from freedom to fear in the same moment.
And then sometimes all of that gets pushed aside and magic just shows up without any input from me.
Maybe you’re traveling for Thanksgiving. Maybe you’re not. Maybe you’ll be surrounded by people. Maybe you won’t. Maybe this right now feels like precisely your time in life. Or maybe right now this absolutely does not feel like the right time in your life. Holidays have a way of bringing expectations to the foreground. Sometimes that can be magic. Sometimes it can be crushing.
While I don’t know much, I do know this. We all get our share of magic, it’s just a matter of timing. Wherever you are, I wish you well. If you’re in the magic, enjoy. If you’re in the fog, keep going. And if you need a break, take it but come back soon. We need you.